Thursday, August 29, 2013

is a piece of my soul considered an introduction?

I never knew how to begin.
But now I really have no idea...
My mind is constantly flooded with words and thoughts and feelings that I can't ever seem to write down.
I think it's because I'm afraid:
Of not knowing how.
Of being judged.
Of not being good enough.
Of the truth of the pain of my words and where they come from.
Of actually being good enough.
Of no one hearing what I have to say...
Of no one caring.
But I have to push these fears aside.
I just have to STOP HOLDING MY TONGUE and let the words fall out.

This is the beginning.
Today is the day the words start spilling. And hearts start to shatter.
Even if the only heart that shatters is mine, that's okay.
My feelings, bloody and broken, are going to be painted across the universe. Mine.
No one else may ever know or care. But they'll be there for the days that I need them most.
On the rainy days, alone in the coffee shop where no one else knows I go.
Shh...it's a secret.
But it's one of my favorites.
And there's so many secrets, all of them running away into the dark shadows of my mind.
Hiding from the world I wished I didn't live in.
But my mind is about to be cracked wide open.
And you'll know my secrets.

So if you're afraid of the dark, of blood and pain, and the broken pieces of life...
Then look away.
My mind is not a place for the faint heart or the weak soul.
There's some days when I can't even look. That's why I write.
Writing makes the pain seem beautiful.
It is the universe I live in, and you can come if you want.
But beware of the WARNING signs.
The lock you'll have to open.
The walls you'll have to climb to get in.
The imperfections you'll see.
The bloody footprints that mark where I've been.
Stains of words on the sky that no one else understands.
The smell of smoke and coffee.
And of the burning ashes of my existence.
The pieces of me that no one ever sees.
And there's a reason why...

7 comments:

  1. Oh my heck! This is amazing! You are a fantastic writer! I want more!

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  2. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH... YOU ARE AN AMAZING WRITER... I HOPE THAT YOU KNOW THAT! I WILL FOLLOW YOU ON THIS JOURNEY, AND STICK BY YOUR SIDE!

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  3. A piece fell for this. Love. I'm not looking away.

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  4. Today is the day words start spilling. And hearts start to shatter. Even if the only heart that shatters is mine, that's okay.

    My heart shattered. Love love love those lines. And the one about painting your feelings across the universe.

    If you're a girl, let's be best friends, and if you're a guy, let's go on a date. Already fallen in love with your words.

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  5. Way to use your pain.

    The blog looks good. Real good.

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  6. No fire?! . . . Oh wait there's ashes mentioned. You have my attention, and I will be coming back for more. Keep it going, and don't leave me hanging on the edge on anticipation for much longer!
    And now a song you should look at. Last Three Letters, by Alesana, sung by Milke, and very poetic (though it sounds like it's not. [Viewer's Discretion Advised!!!]).

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    1. looked at that song (awhile ago but forgot to mention it)
      and i did enjoy the lyrics, very much so.
      thanks for sharing.
      and feel free to share any more inspiration, it is mucho appreciated.

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